I have rediscovered tumblr!!!!! I haven’t been on here in a while! Tumblr used to be looking at pictures and reposting them but thats what I have Pinterest for now! So I will be turning this blog into a food blog! I may rant once in a while but I will post pics and recipes of the food I make on here and say if it is a success or not! :) lets see how this goes!!!! :D
is it possible to be in love when you’re only 17? is it possible to want to spend the rest of your life with someone who you’ve only been dating for 6 months? is it possible to to marry your first and only boyfriend? is it possible to want to be with someone forever? is it possible to already know the names of our future dogs? is it possible that we’re moving way too fast? is it possible???
I’m getting so fricken sick of these irregular periods! God Damn It!!!!!! I mean seriously! I’m 17, almost 18, years old! I should have a regular fucking cycle by now!!!! Excuse my language but I’m sick of it! ughhhhhh… girl stuff.. it’ll drive you crazy.
Can we just slow down and take a deep breath. Think about what we have right now, and who we have right now. We need to stop thinking about tomorrow, stop thinking of “what’s better”. Think what is good now. I want to enjoy right now.
I don’t know what i want to do with my life… I don’t know what i want to do or where i want to go. There are so many possibilities and I’ve been stuck on one for so long that I didn’t realize there were so many other options. If I take one path I don’t know where it will take me and I’m scared. What if I choose something I’ve never talked with anyone about before? What will my parents think? Should I go to the same college as my boyfriend? Should I go somewhere near him? Should I go somewhere far from home? I’m afraid of it getting too hard… of life getting to complicated and actually having to work for something… I’m scared.. God damn it, I’m scared?!!!
my life has changed in the past year. i started going to Rainy River Community College as a PSEO student instead of attending my highschool… i realized that i lost every friend i had there. i have the best boyfriend in the world! he makes me feel so special and i dont want to lose him! i grew up and got a job… unlike the friends i lost i am very mature! i will try and avoid my highschool as much as i can because its my past and i dont want to go backwards… only forwards…. its my life and i’m 1 step ahead of everyone else and even though it always makes me cry thinking about it, this change was for the better.